The hurrier I go...

So if you want to give the big guy a good chuckle, go ahead and makes some plans. And while you're at it, he'll get an even bigger laugh out of it if you proceed blithely along as if those plans will work out as, er, planned.

I'm at a point in my life (almost thinking about growing up sometime in the next 50 years or so) where I've actually begun to get a chuckle and a belly laugh out of watching plans come apart in a slow motion train wreck. Especially if they are my plans!

Remember when I said I like big chunks of my life to be challenging and hard? Well I still do!

I may be the only human in the existence of the universe who really does believe that the fire and pressure of hard, hard challenges is what makes me the human I want to be. I don't think I am the only one, and I really think that rather a lot more folks feel that way than I believe.

And I also suspect that there are uncountable millions of people being forged as we speak (in a manner of spe -- er -- you know what I mean) who are absolutely hating every minute of it, but those millions will, if they stay the course, look back on the shitstorm they've navigated and be at least secretly glad.

So hard and tough and distasteful and hair-pulling and brain exploding! The more the better! Bring it on!

However, today was just like that, as was yesterday, and the day before, and, well, you get the idea. And lemme tell ya, in the moment it

SUCKS!

There is no fun in funville when the hard shit is going down.

But there is satisfaction in being able to stay the course, in not quitting, in not giving in to the pressure to violate core principles, to treating others as best you can the way you would wish to be treated rather than kicking them soundly in the nether regions as you so honestly, in the moment, believe they so, so, deserve.

Tomorrow will bring more suckage. It always does. But I can do suckage!

With the big guy's guidance and assistance. In truth, he does the all the parts that are too hard for me.

But the parts that I can do, which the big guy insists I do, er, do (sorry), well, let's just say that the forging is coming along nicely. It's not there yet. It'll never be there. But it's better than it was yesterday. Big guy willing, it'll get even more better tomorrow.